my trust was shattered....

dear bloggie..
i don't know wether the title match to what i'm gonna dot down...it's about paksu...i know that i shouldn't tell all about my problems here..but i just don't know what to do ??? what's going on with my life...??? why is everybody changing or i'm the one who is changing...??? pak su is my 4rd role model after mummy,cekgu faris, and abg pejan..the one who inspires me a lot...it's all happened to fast....

the story begin when ayahmer (merangkap brother in law to my mummy) passed away because of diabetes...before he passed away,dier ader ckp "kalo bang mer dah xder nnt yam(mummy) tolong jagekan kak chom(mak cha') ya" maybe because of kami slalo lawat dier kat spital time dier saket so dier cumer harapkan kami je lah kot...adik2 yg lain xderk dtg melawat pown...sebok maybe...

after he passed away mak cha' xmawu ikut balik taiping but she wanted to stay with paksu maybe because of mummy is a straight person,so she doesn't wants to follow mummy's rule. kene smayang,do not pee everywhere and one more thing mummy kuat "pot pet" but i swear i really miss listening to her "babling" this and that when she gone to mecca last year....

okie back to the story,lepas raye rituh pak su dah xsanggop nak jage mak cha' suda...so kitorang pown bwk la mak cha' balik tepeng...first week tuh mmg tension giler beb !! hancing satu umah...she doesn't want to wear pampers !!! then she doesn't wanna listen to what we asked her to do !!! "kencing dlm toilet"...and "don't drink to much !"...mmg aku akui aku terkene tekanan perasaan gak lewr...sampe terbawak2 ke sekolah..abih xpasal2 bebudak class aku kene $%#@&^&#!@ ngan aku..huhuh..i just can't control my emotion when i'm hungry and when i'm facing any problems...

tadik,mummy called paksu and ask him for money coz mummy dah xlarat nak jage mak cha'...so nak amek bibikla jage mak cha' ...come on la weih..can't you think....??? mummy aku tuh dah tua...umo mcm dier cumer patut berehat jea..BUDUH !!! she is 57 years old now...harith meninggal arituh pown kitorang xdapat nk gie kl sbb mak cha' xboleyh bwk gie jln jauh naik bus...kalo xafter abes last paper kitorang dah fly kl dah...mummy xpandai drive...abg2 aku sumer busy kije...nak kuar pekan pown jarang2 coz xderk transport.xkanla mummy dah tua2 nak kene naik public transport plak...??? can't he think yg kitorang susa nak gie beli barang dapur sbb mak cha' tuh jenis yg memilih makanan..but then dier mkn xabih pown..geram giler aku...

nak hulur 2 ratus hengget pown susah ker...??? dier dah dapat kerje dah...gaji plak 5-6 ribu...plus his wife punyer gaji...boleyh dier ckp xcukup duit ??? siap ckp lagik kat mummy "hang nak lepas tanggungjawab hang ka ?"....


hurmm..ntah la..aku pown xpaham ngan manusia skarang nih..
kengkadang tuh aku raser mcm diorang nih akal pendek taw...dier kate keselamatan mak cha' xterjamin lagi..hallo !! excuse me, slame nih kitorang tinggal ber3 ader ke org laki jage ??? then lagi satu,kalo dier duk umah dier boleyh la anak dier dtg melawat tgk2an dier...dier rindukan cucu dier...xbaik pisahkan kasih sayang diorang w'pun parents kpd cucu2 dier buat taik....dier dok sini pown xabih2 dok mention name cucu dier...


i just have no idea what to do anymore....
harap2 sumer nih dpt sattle dgn cepat without any problem anymore.