rock my world !!!!

dear bloggy,
now i can smile broadly without thinking about any aother things that could make me down..
hahahahaahahahaha......... i'm so happy !!! yihaaa!!! they all rocks my world !!!!
heheee....gini kisahnyer.... aku mmg xexpect yg aku nak gie gig tuh sbb tuh gig budak2 hardcore...iyelah...aku nih saper...??? ish..ish..ish..but on the friday's evening after i've finished my appointment with the dentist at the hospital taiping,i loafed with lien,jimmy,han,sam, and ntah saper lagi 2 org tuh..mmg sempoi gilak la..hehehe..at the avena.then suddenly my crush passed by in front of the avena cafe with his friend.ehem..then i knew that he is the one that sale the ticket for the gig.oh damn it !!! of course he is because he is one of the hardcore's member. jie sucks!!! my heart screaming !!! shouting for him!!! i wanna go to that gig.

han said " nanie xnak gie ker..???" pastu jimmy plak ckp

" nanie,pegi la esok boleyh teman lien" uhuh....lien plak duk cucuk2 aku

" nanie gie la boleyh ank usyar dier..."

ish lagila aku nak pegi..SHIT gatal betol aku nih..!!!


then i took out a paper note 50 ringgit and asked han to buy tickets for me and lien...then aku ckp kat lien...

"jgn luper bayo yer...."...hehehhehe

then on the event day which is saturday....my heart was jumping-jumping-jumping..and i can't stop it...i just don't know what was pn normadiah talking about during physics lesson and what pn shaharidah was saying about during chemistry lesson....hahahah he really2 drives me crazy...
huhuhu...then yesterday was my sinfull da....i've lie to much yesterday just to enjoy myself to the fullest...eventhough i felt guilty to mummy,sir david, to myself and to GOD......i was really2 happy !!! yes i'm so happy !!! someitimes i have to do white lies just to make myself happy...but i'm afraid that i will go back to my past...i don't wanna be like who i'm in the past..the one who is full with sin...a daughter who had broke her mom's heart into pieces... a problematic girl... i really2 missed my life-yeah my real life.... being hot chick...flirt with those hot boys....fabulous...glamourus...free hair...uyeah !!! but i know that i shouldn't step back...there's no turning back...!!! life's goes on !!!! jie kalo la aku free hair...mmg dah lame aku join those guys...flirting at the gig...it soubds like bohsia..but not-so bohsiala...i still have my pride !!!

i just sat down on the cemen and watched 'em all rocking on the stage!!! it was fabulous !!! totally awesome and havoc!!! baru aku tawu mat-mat hardcore ramai yg handsome2....hahahahhaha...siot aje...!!!! then bohsia2 pown ade gak....dalam lebeyh 10 org..with their mini skirts,dyed hair,tight shirt,nampak abeh lemak2 kat perot tuh..ish...ish..ish..
malu aku tgk...hehehe..


guy with the dreadlock hair whom i've met on the friday while i was walking to the hospital also there!!!!! YES !!!!!!! i saw him. but i disapointed a bit because he didn't smile at me.last friday he smiled at me.SMILE.SMILE.SMILE.SMILE.please...!!! then he smiled at me.yes !!! he smiled at me at the outside of the dewan china.while i was answering for mummy's call at 7.30 pm...hahahaha..he was sitting on his bike.mummy is nagging and babbling at me...but i just ignore it!!! all that i know is that i'm gonna have my day!!! where i will live my life to the fullest !!! i just don't want to care to anyone...sounds that i'm a bit selfish...but yes.i'm a selfish.i'm sick of being plain.i'm sick of being good to everyone.i'm sick of being "lemah-lembut-ayu-sopan-santun" coz nobody's care about my feeling.
hah damn it !!! they all just act like they know everything about me...but no...they are such a bloodyfool!!!!

smlm mmg betul2 aku enjoy !!! and finally i could smile broadly !!! yes !!! nothing can stop me from having this feelin'...i felt like neil amstrong...flying over the moon........


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papai !