a perfect smile with broken wings

dear bloggie...


since last 3 days i've been searching for a new layout which look cute and fun... i've found it...but the profile,tag,and all other thing can't just be view all in one page..it have to click here and there..uhhhh....biler dah ader yg satu page sajer teros, layout dier plak xcun...uhhhh...susahnyerrr...!!! plus the internet connection nih plak mcm arem jer... dah buat streamyx pon cam bongok sajer...!!! argggghhhh...!!! arituh okeh sajer..but start last 3 days dier punyer connectio are very2 poor and soooo stupid !!! rituh bukan main syok lagi aku main...

dah baper puluh kali dah aku call line 100 tuh...but it just to no avail...org streamyx ckp line telephone umah aku yg buat hal....line streamyx cik nanie ok saje...org telekom plak ckp line telekom rumah cik nih xde ape2 masalah....which one is wright and which one is wrong...???? uhhh kepala hotak korang....!!! mak aku bayor bil mahal2 bukan utk dgr jawapan buduh korang tuh...and bukan utk connection mcm tahi nih...skijap ok...skijap ilang terdisconnect...
time pak cik technician tuh datang umah semalam,pandai ja streamyx nih connect elok2 and then laju plak tuh...elok depa balik, server down balik.... mcm chipsmore pulak naaa line streamyx nih...aku buh penumbuk gak kang...grr...grrr...grr...


umph nothing much happened today... this morning i've woke up late...sbonarnyer aku dah kunci alarm pukul 6.30 then biler dah bunyi,aku gie off...hehehehe..sedor2 dah 7.30....then qada' je lah subuhku.....

mak masak nasik lemak...nyummy2...sodap giler...mom's cook is he perfect cook !!!! deliciious...i just can't avoid the nasi lemak..tempting !!! grrr.. aku makan 3 pinggan aku blasah...huhuhu..sayangku mungkir pada janjiku..... awal2 lagi dah surrender ngan azam tawun baru....asyik dok carry forward saje aku punyer new year resolutions....dari 42 kg teros 57 kg...buduh !!!! bukannyer makin ringan..makin berat aderla... nanie..naie..nanie...aku raser law aku nak die kene anta aku gie africa...ataupun hutan mane2 yg xderk makanan...huhuh barula aku boleh slim...huhuhuh....

well at about 9.30 i've called the hospital taiping thru the orthodontik....it's about my braces... it has broken at the end...before this early in december,one of the end at the left one has broked... but i just ignored it and the "besi" does not poke my mouth wall...so buat xtawu saje lah... but then yesterday when i wanted to break my fast (puase ganti yg baru nak di ganti..hehhee) the iron suddenly brake at the end of the right side la pulak..and it does not stp poking my mouth !!! giler saket wooo...tp lapor punyer pasal aku bedal gak nasik tuh... then this moring i've met madame woo....luckily not dr arjunan..if not surely he will scold me....huhuhuh....


then just went back home...bukak2 pintu kerete..." alamak...luper nak beli wrapper...!!!" uh...nyanyuk suda rupernyer aku nih....esok2 jer lah...


well i'm so-so-so fuckin' up rite now...because i can't watch oprah talkshow...!!!!buduh...the astro has been unsubscribed...it's been about 3 weeks suda...since lepas raye aji rituh..ahhh busannyer balik2 tgk rtm saje...lame2 muke pown jadik mcm ikan sardin... nih sumer gare2 abang sulungku yg good-for-nothing itu lah....promise nak bayar hutang kononnyer dgn bayaq astro...he just can't be trusted... then dier ckp dier dah xguner account yg under name dier tuh dah.astro dier buat gune name wife dier plak...bagossss.....biar blacklisted name dia...nanti mati roh pun tergantung ja kat langit tuh...hutang keliling pinggang!!! such a really2 good job !!! keep it up!!! STUPID !


ermmm this coming sunday nak kene gi kl plak dah.. kak sue balik tepen ri sabtu pick up kitorang gkl....mak punyer appoinment ngan doc kat spital selayang...uhuh..spital tunang doc sheikh..huh..hancur luluh ati ku....
:(

the appointment is for mom's kidney and her gall bladder which doc had diagnose that there are some small stones..maybe they're gonna laser mom's kidney and gall bladder..uhhh takotnya aku dengaq...!!!

then 19 of january nak fly gie terengganu plak..duk umah abg pejan..ahhh tp xbest lah sbb diorang keje... aku ngan mak mesti kene lepak jer kat umah..law before this umah kat tepi pantai...bleh lepak2 sambil tgk beautiful scenery, layan mancing ikan..yeah i might not a good pemancing,but i can fishing well....ahaaaa...

what else i wanna say here...??? ahhaa last thursday lien and me went to the school to take our pin no for the upu application...cikgu mazuin ckp aku makin bulat....cissss.....mak cik kantin plak ckp muker aku macam muker cikgu...double cisss dale betol depa nih..aku telan gak kang..!!!
ckp ler muke aku mcm aishwaryarai ker...mcm doctor ker....uhhh.... blah arrr...

what else...??? ahaa...i don't like friends who used my name just to klentong2 parents depa sbb nak gie dating ngan boyfriend..!!! damn it..!!! dah la kuaq time mlm2..then guner name aku...padehal aku skit punyer baguih dok layan chatting ym....then suddenly about 12 a.m, she called me and said...
"nanie boleh mintak tolong x...???aku kene gie umah ko skarang emergency nih...!"
dgn nade panic and cemasnyer...aku ingatkan hape la..perogol nak rogol dia ka..perompak nak rompak ka...rupernyer2 kantoi ngan parent dier... sbb parent dia balik2 tgk ider dah xderk kat bilik dia..then mak dier dtg umah aku buat kecoh2...just imagine at about 12.30 in the morning, her mother came to my house and shouted this and that....baguihnyaaa...naseb baik xmarah aku ... die cumer marahkan anak dier sajer...law tak...mak ngan anak aku lempang jer....cewaahhh...mcm berani jer akuh nih...hehehhee...

but i don't like la when people used my name to cheat their parents and go dating,went back home at night..of course nnt parents budak tuh ckp yg aku nih ngajar anak dia kuaq malam.... ahhh friends all are the same...it is so hard to find a "REAL FRIENDS" in this life...

• someone who will not take advantage on us,

• whom will not irritates us.

• friends who are not a "drama queen" ,

• friends who know how to appreciate us when we give some advices to them but they said that we were being such a busy body on their personal life or put them down,

• a friend who will just not talk about his boyfriend all the time...duh go and get a life girl..in this world it wasn't all about your boyfriend okeh ??? as if she's the only one who has a boyfriend,then she just neglected her family just like his boyfriend yg pregnant kan dier,besarkan dier,skolah kan dier slamer nih......that's stupid...!!!

• a friend who will not only asked us to listen to all of her problems and avoided us when we wanted to talked about our problem...ahah...aku ader cukup ramai kawan2 yg mcm nih... that's why i prefer to blogging and vommiet all of my problems here... :)

• a friend who will not bad mouth about our problems to other people... i've experienced this before...and i swear that i will never ever tell her any of my problem though she is my bestfriend since in primary school...

• a friend who wanna "tumpang" our popularities...yelah..even aku nih dah xbaper nak glamour sgt sbb aku dah slow ngan scene underground since aku dah bertudung nih...last time..bukan main lagi suma nak berkepit ngan aku...plus-plus lagi during the MSSD yg dibuat kat skolah aku in 2005, ramai gak budak2 scene underground dari KING EDWARD yg active sports(actually member sesame jamming)....diorang nampak aku lepak kat canteen ngan dak2 sports tuh teros mai duduk sebelah aku dgn harapan the guys will be attracted to her...padahal seblom tuh, haram xpernah tegoq aku pun...ceyt.... pompuan camnih pown ada gak naaa..????

• a friend who will not let us down...ahaaa... ada gak dlm class aku 3 ekoq....law aper2 cikgu puji aku,mesti pompuan tuh akan cakap "alaaaa nasib dier baik jer cikgu dpt markah tinggi...ini kalau saye xjawab main2, saye boleh dapat lagi tinggi dari dier...." hotak kau...dah bodoh tu bodoh gak arrr !!! muler2 aku ingatkan dier nak melawak..but if you listend to her tone of voice, she was not making a joke...she just jealouses on me...ape larrr sgt yg aku ader....sampe nak jeles2 nih...???

• a friend whom will not "fitnah" us..ape ntah words dier in english dan..dan la nih la pun nak lupa...ish... it was really2 a nightmare !!!! after what i've did to her.. i gave her some strength and support after her mother had passed away she just could slandering me like this....jawab la ko kat akhirat nnt....even sampe skunk nih ak tersempak dier,aku xkan pandang muke dier..law pandang pun aku sikit pun xkan senyum kat dier... i'm really2 hard to forgive people....well that's me...

• a friend who only rember us during their hard times and just forget us straigth away after all of her problems flew away...what kind of person you are...?? though we've befriend back, but the scars still there...though i've forgive you, i can't never forget what you've done to me.... thanks a lot friend !

umphhh..aper lagi ehh...??? actually aku nih bukan ler sorang yg pessimistic and pikir ttg negative sajer.... ader gak perangai2 member aku yg baik2...aku nih pown bukannyer baik sgt pown... mcm lela...dier slalu sediekan notes utk aku - note2 tuh dier buat sendirik woooo... then, law aku saket or ader appoinment nga doc arjunan, dier will surely amekkan aku nota2 yg cikgu bagi...same goes to lien and ekynn.. ekynn plak slalu ngajaq aku chemistry !!! hohoh..chemistry pompuan nih power dowh...!!! lien plak partner tag team badut aku dlm class tuh...slalu gaduh tuduh2 org tuh org nih kentot dlm class ...hahahaha...but at last identity org yg kentut dlm class tuh terus menjadi mystery.....grr....saper la ha yg kentot bawu cirit tuh...x boleh blah arr...gawat satu class !!! zura plak partner aku utk pegi jogging and window shopping !!! dier sorang jer yg sanggup kuar window shopping ngan aku 5-6 jam...ahahaha...friends i miss you guys...!!!


hurmm...i've just finished surfing the airasia.com and booked the tickets for me and mom to terengganu....ticket pergi dier mahal...utk balik plak cumer 20 hengget sajer..hehehe....baguihnyer...!!!

well aku skunk nih ngah ngidam satu jacket coldroi woo even though made in siam, tp aku dah teliti betui2 dah....kuality dier mmg baguih...then, price dier plak is only about 25 hengget...alahai..org siam tuh law aku ketuk dier suh bagi 15hengget mesti dier bagi punyer ahhh rituh dah ader sorang kene ngan aku..ehehhe..sian dier....baju polka dots tuh price dier 30, tp aku suh dier bagi gak 15...hehehe..bagi gak...pasnih boleh beli lagi..cantik wooo baju tuh...ish... nih yg buat aku nak termimpi2 jer baju tuh....

then, td while i was reading the new straits time, ader flyers from dell....duh notebook dell yg latest punyer tuh cumer lebih 200 hengget saje dari laptop sharp aku nih...law aku beli dell dulu pun xper...dah ler come in banyak colour...!!! RM2699 sajer....!!! naper lah aku gelojoh sangat beli rituh.... raser cam nak pegi tukaq ja...ahhh..keje gila...tamak betoi aku nih....napsu..napsu..napsu....astghfirullahal'azim..cewah mcm mak adif jer dlm dunia baru...hehehe...


apo laei huh eden nak kato kat sini haaa...??? ahaaa..tadik aku tertengok skijap gazet NONA this coming sunday....cisssss....dr sheikh...handsomenyer....!!! naseb baik aku bukan pengacara NONA tuh..law xmesti aku dah kene hysteria kat situ gak...har...har..har... best jer dr. halina..ahhh enough nanie... may GOD bless their relationship !
:)

aku skunk nih dlm dilemma nih...aku raser mcm nak saje pegi kedai pets tuh cari nemo yg baru...tp aku takut depa mati mcm nemo2 and the friends yg dulu...then aku raser mcm nak jer beli hamster ...tp silap la plak...cage hamster pink aku tuh aku dah jual kat lien...25 hengget....sian dia merayu2 kat aku nak 20...woooo...mane buleh...aku beli dulu 35 tuh...elok lagi aku jaga...xdak rosak wooo.... where got road...then terkadang aku raser mcm nak beli kure2 plak utk buh kat mangkuk kace akuh nih....aku tanam pegage dlm air dlm bilik aku nih wooo... aku nak jadik pencite alam skitar....peace !!! save your world, save wild life....

tgklah...law ader rezeki, aku nak amek vat...aku kan animal lover...aku nak beli lagik kucing parsi ngan siam, buat baka...dah ada anak ramai leh wat bussiness jual..mahal wooo tuh...beribu2 hengget wooooo kucing persian... ahh berangan2 jer aku nih taw...but when it comes tuh part buang taik kucing aku mmg xboleh thn.so-so-so fucked up......busuk gila ! even dah pake pasir ubat yg paling mahal...gila...camner kittens2 aku nih punyer reproductive systems pown aku xtaw.....

rabbit...?? dulu time form1- form2 aku dah pernah bele dah...bosan gak..dah la makan banyak...taik pown banyak....pastuh law lepas kat lawn tuh, gila punya penat nak mampuih nak kejaq.....kalah penat panjat tangga batu caves...hehehe..boleh slim ! burung plak..aku xminat utk bele burung...ntah ler maybe sbb xbest kot.... then law boleh,ader rezeki, aku nak bukak farm aku sendirik...butterflies farm....mcm yg kat penang tuh....huih...dah lama xp butterflies farm....

hurmmm..apa lagik haaa...??? aku nih nak cari vcd or dvd yg best2 nih busan nak mampuih...thp dewa cipanzi....rituh beli dvd rattatouile skali ngan kak lina..dvd dia ok ja...cantik...yg aku punya dvd langsung xboleh bukak...cisss.... lagik satu,yg kat pasar mlm punya plak citer alvin and the cipmunk..cover depan yg movie kat cinema tuh...time play dvd,skali gambaq katun punya !!! cinabeng !!! then a week later aku gie pasar mlm xjumpa dah mamat tuh....!!! brengset !!!!


hurmmm..aper lagi yg aku nak merpu dlm page nih haaa...??
rasernyer2 dah xderk dah kot... umph...xpa lah.... k..nite everyone....
:)