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dear GOD......
please give me some strenghtness to face this all....why do i have to face this all...??? what did i've done till i have to face all this ??? what's wrong with me...?? i dunno whether i'm the one who is exaggerating this problem. i just feel like i'm going to cry..ahh i'm so weak. though i look strong outside...but deep down in my heart..i can't face all this anymore...

it just happened so fast.the problem started at the gig. yeah. berdose ngan mummy lah nih. tuh yg hidop aku xaman2...isk..isk.isk..okeyh la i speak in malay sajer lorh..
senang skit....the story begin like this...gig tuh aku xnak pegi.but lien and jimmy asyik duk pujuk2 aku saje time kat Avena ptg jumaat rituh( a day before the gig) aku pown tergode lar.then lien ckp she wants to borrow from me 13 hengget because she had no money. okay fine. aku pown tgh kaye time tuh.aku kasik la.

then when the day come,both of us enjoyed to the fullest !!! then gig stopped at 6.30p.m..aku ckp aku nak balik.nnt mummy risau.tp xkan aku nak gie bus stand tuh sorang2 dari dewan cine...giler pergh...??? jauh tuh...lien xnak balik lagik.dier nak date ngan jimmy pueh2...ahah....but then when the clock strikes 8.30 aku tetibe nampak kelibat sorang mamat nih masuk ngan muker bengisnyer...mcm kenai saje mamat nih...tp dimane yea....???
then baru aku tingat.it's wan !!! a.k.a lien's-8th boyfriend.hahaha..then he pointed at us and ask us to go back home.malu siyot !! org rame gak yg tengok.specially yg x moshing time tuh.

then kitorunk jln la nak balik.then he blocked us from going to the bustand.he said
"lien ank cepat naik moto''...what the hell....??? i've waited for her and then i got to go back home all alone...??? shit !!! then lien gado ngan wan.and she spit towards him.hahahaha....but then he said
"pandai datang,pandaila balik sendiri pompuan gatai !!!" hell shit !!! i don't give a damn to people like you !!! bangsat la weih !!! bukannyer aku carik pasai pun dgn ank.gampang ja !
kan aku dah start cursing !!! i hate it when people spoilt my mood !! don't they have any other works to do better than spoiling my day...??? go and get a life!!! aku bukannyer pompuan gatal !! sial !! haramjadah punyer jantan!!! jgn ingat dah tolong aku mcm2 senang2 jer nak cop aku!!! BABI la weih !fakiu !!! your girlfriend is the one who is gatal + miang + merla = slut !!!!! during at the gig !!! dier yg dok tergedik2 + terhegeh2 kat jimmy tuh.babi ja!!! kan aku dah mencarut lagi. aku geram ahh nih.aku dah try utk pendamkannyer saje.tp aku xboleyh !!!! makin aku lupekan,makin tertoreh hati aku nih !!!


then lien spread everything about last saturday at the gig to dapi and lela.where should i put my face...?? my pride...??? then on the friday,lien asked my to borrow my peka chemistry.aku xnak bagi.sebab aku nak kemaskan lagi.tp dier buat muker sedih.aku nih bukannyer ley tgk org buat muker sedyh kat aku.aku pown bagila kat dier.then she promised me to give it back on the saturday during the marching session.but she forgot to bring it.nevermind la.she said she wants to give it at taiping after i've finished my tuition.ok.fine.i'll wait for you i said.

my watch strikes 6 p.m already.yet she didn't meet me nor called me.what la weih....?? i've been waiting like stupid hell !!! plus all other friends ask me
" nanie ank xkuar ngan lien ker? " aku ckp x. " naper nampak dier ke ? kat maner...???"
"dier kat bowling ngan kawan2 dier + ngan balak dier + ngan adik dier" hell shit !!! i'm so stupid !!! i should not help you !!! time susa2 cari aku.mintak tolong aku klentong wan la sbb ank gie date ngan jimmy..bullshit to have a friend like you !!! though you've sent me sms just now and ask for my forgiveness,i can't forgive you !!! because of you i've been labelled as " perempuan gatal " you slut !!! i hate you !!! i hate you lien !!!! i'll never forget about this. i'm hardly to forgive people. wan melutut depan aku pown aku xkan maafkan dier !!! BABI punyer wan !!!