this world is not a safe place for me anyomre.....

dear bloggy....
is there still have any place for me in this world ....??? or i should go to any other galaxie so that nobody can hurt my feelings....??? damn !!! this world is full of cruelty, idiotics!!!!, the busy body persons !!!! too many bitches !!!! and i really2 hate people who accused me for other people's mistakes !!!! BABI LA WEIH !!!!! i just can't stop cursing , cursing people.... eventhough the quarrel between me and ustazah minhah took place last 2-3 weeks but it still dusturbing me !!! burdening me !!! irritates me !!!! SETAN !!!! HELL YOU OUT FROM MY LIFE !!!!!

the thing happened when last saturday i didn't come to school for the skolah ganti...coz i knew that day is going to be the KOPREASI DAY...so there's no study session....perhaps there's tonnes of homeworks gotta do...but on the monday all those students who didn't come to school were called and have to do some punishment....but that is not a big deal because we only have to picked up all the rubbish around the school....me and lela have done our part, so then we went to the toilet because i'm having the stomach ache...( ehehe besa la tuh pepagi kene la gie bank) after finished berakking we headed to our class but not even for one minute i've been called by my junior and he said that ustazah minhah wanted to met me at the staffroom so i went there...i've wait her for about 5 minutes but she didn't appear so wanted to go back to my class to continue the EST lesson with sir zyrean....happened to be on my way she appeared at the stairs and grumbled at me in fronts of other student!!!! ok fine i knew that was my problem because i ran before i finished picking up all the rubbish..but why only me...???? what about lela,sling thea, and izzati...??? they also escaped from being punished !!!! what the hell is happening....?? she asked me...

" sapa suruh kamu masuk class....???" i was just about to answer her question but did she cut my words by saying that
" sapa kamu nak masuk class " then i sputtered that
" saye nak belajar....."
"amboi !!!!! besaq sangat ka kamu nih....???? habih tuh orang lain tuh xnak blajaq la...??? awak sorang ja nak blajaq....???" then i looked at the other girls who also should picked up the rubbish but they didn't and end up by watching the "drama" between me and ustazah minhah "SI NENEK TUA" feeling that i 've been humiliated by her i then raise up my voice and i just stand for my right by saying that....
" habis tuh kalo diorang betul2 nak belajar, kenaper yg diorang dok bertenggek kat depan koop tuh....??? doksebok ja nak amek tawu hal orang lain....???? kalo diorang betul2 nak belajar xder la diorang wat macam tuh..." then pompuan gila tuh cakap pe ntah..aku tak ingat but then i said that
" ustazah nak cakap ape itu ustazah punyer pasal !!!! mulut ustazah, ustazah punyer hak,saye datang sekolah nak belajar.SPM saye lagi berape bulan saje...jadik jangan ganggu saye...ni ha..bukan saye sorang jer yg xbuat kerje bagi habis....ramai lagi....budak2 form 4, zulaiha,sling thea ngan izzati pown same gak tapi kenaper saye sorang saje yang kene...????"
she then shouted at rawdzah and asked her to call lela....then she came and ustazadh didn't fire her any single words pown !!!! PANTAT !!!!! dah ler sling thea ngan izzati xkene panggil langsung pown !!!! then she forced us to go to the crowd...but then she called me once again and she asked me

" saye dengar kamu bersubahat sekali teman zulaiha ngan si azry basir berdating....teman diorang pergi makanla...bende nih bukan pengawas yang cakap budak biasa yang bagi taw kat saya....skarang nih saya xboleh nak marah budak2 sebab diorang pown menjawab kata pengawas ustazah pown sama !!!"

"sape yang cakap kat ustazah nih...??? memang la betul saye ade ngan diorang time makan kat kedai kuehtiow sup kat bawah sane nun...hari khamis lepas. habis meeting pkl 1.30 then pukol 2 ader extra class utk sejarah...saye xbalik rumah....saye makan la kat bawah tu...xkan la nak makan pown salah....?? saye gune duit saye bukannyer saye mintak satu sen kat sape-sape pown....! xkanla nak makan pown salah....??? bemde saye dah memang bestfriend ngan zulaiha since skolah rendah...mane saye pegi jer dier ikut...xkan saye nak halau dier kot cakap " syuh-syuh jgn ikut aku" usatzah pikirla sikit ustazah...lagi pown mmg kami dah plan nak mkn bertige..si basir tuh yang menyebok2 join kamik skalik....tapi skarang nih saye pulak yang nak dipersalahkan...ape ustazah nih....????" then she said that everything that she do,she have investigate already....hah !!!! she escaped from me!!!! you coward !!!!! she was trying to find my fault by saying that

"usatazah kalau ustazah nak buat apa2 ustazah mesti catat dulu dalam buku....kalau kamu xingat sebelum kem Qudraton Nadjwah yang tido kat skolah tuh time pagi ustazah ada cakap kat kamu yang ustazah nak jumpa kamu, tapi kamu xdtg pown jumpa saya...." then i've tried hard to remember back is it true that she wanted to meet me and is it true that she really said that....but it was to no avail..i can't remember it !!! DAMN !!!!

" saye xingat pown...mane ade ustazah jumpe saye ckp nak jumpe saye....????" and one thing is..if she really2 want to meet me, why is it after the camping she didn't asked me again to meet her...??? plus thousands of times we met while were on our way....i was trying to said about that but again she cuts my words by saying that....

" itulah...kita semua ada kelemahan masing-masing....tapi xnak mengaku....jgnlah biler usatazah cakap sikit kamu dah nak melatah...." then aku nak jawab but she said

" nanti dulu...bagi saya xhabih cakap....bagi saya cakap dulu...saya tawlah awak pandai cakap...awak jangan ingat awak duduk kat class budak2 pandai, awak boleh buat taktau ja dgn saya....xhormat saya...saya tawla awak tuh kawan ngan siti zulaiha,budak pandai...mesti dia dah crita macam2 yang buruk ttg saya kat awak...awak jangan ingat saya xmengajar awak saya xboleyh xredha awak..."

" ooooohhhh...habis tuh....suku sakat ustazah tuh..yang suke ikut blakang ustazah 3 ekor monyet pengawas yang suke ikut je blakang bontot ustazah,report pasal orang tuh..report pasal orang nih....ngumpat pasal orang tuh...pasal orang nih dah berjaye sangat ker....???? diorang dapat no 1 ke dalam class....???? memang dari awal tahun lagi saye nampak ustazah mmg pilih kasih !!!! ustazah cumer layan baik2 budak2 yang suke mendempek ustazah,yang suke puji-puji ustazah..yelah saye nihkan pengawas baru...manerlah saye nak tahu syarat2 utk jadik "teacher's pet"...." then i just could not stand it anymore...!!! i just left her alone with all the penonton who were watching our movie !!!! hah !!!! pueh ati eden melepaskan segale yang terbuku,tersimpan,bersarang,bernanah di lubuk hati ku ini....ehh..lagi satu aku luper nak sound dier...nape orang lain yang punyer masalah aku plak yang kene...???



ok enough about that story...hooraaayyy!!!! i've got my driving license !!!!! hip-hip HOORAY !!!! i've passed it and mummy have bought a car for me !!!! guess what is that car...??? hehehhehe it's VIVA !!!!!yey !!! i've drive to taiping,to bukit gantang, to simpang....pin-pin..pon-pon...but unfortunately,mummy didn't give me permission to drive it to school..she worried what will people do towards me...she saids friends will be jealousy and they will do abything just to let me down !!!! like what intan the prefect did to me... she is the master mind who reported about me eating with lela,lien and basir...hah !!! lien xkene plak tuduh bersubahat...???? that shows she was jealousy with me...huh...tidak kusangka..aku baik dengan mu....bagi semangat kat lu time mother lu meninggal, time lu accident, time lu masuk spital cause sakit buah pinggang....gua bagi madu kat lu....lu balas tuba kat gua !!!! SIALAN !!!!! aku xpandang muker dier langsung dah skunk nih...and ider pown takut nak tegur aku...hahaha...kalau betul dier xsalah..buat aper dier nak takut2 tegur aku....???? hahahaha...bodoh !!!!!


well, now i'm the editor of sidang redaksi- the school magazine....on the first day everything flows smoothly like what we've planned but on the second day of the photography session, basir buat hal...he quarrelled with syikien..yeah...syikien tuh pown satu..berkire habis bile bab-bab buat kerje nih...... then basir mengamuk...and dier tarik diri...mintak tuka ngan wan desa....ok..end of that prob....but on the third day...the photography session will be at 8.40 am...im not the ajk of the photography session ...and it was shikien, israh, acaq, and wan desa's job to finish it....for the first monday and tuesday nvm lah... i helped them just to make sure that they can manage all the things correctly because they didn't have experienced handling that job... but when teacher thulasi enter the class the clock strikes 8.40 and it is the time...i don't wanna missed that english class because i've skip last 2 days class for the whole day.... perhaps lela adviced me not to skip my class just for setteling the job which is not mine....yeah..and i realize it ...but shikien keep forcing me to leave the class and go for the photography session...i just ignore it.... and i said that
" pegila tu kan kerje hang"
but she had said something and i can't catch the words....she nagging this and that...and then pn rosayu made an announcemen once again for the photography session at 9...so teacher thulasi thought that i "terlibat" oso with the photography session...so she asked me to go there....so i called israh and shikien...israh disn't have any problem with it....but now shikien...!!!! dier boleyh buat pekak saje....eventhough i called her loud and so loud but she kept ignoring me...and i just leave her because i don't want to make any quarrel with her in front of teacher thulasi....

while we were doing the photography session,lela asked her
"shikin,nape hang xpegi buat kerje hang ???" she just simply said that
" ramai sangat yang dah buat kerje aku...jadik buat ape aku nak buat lagik...????' weih SIAL ah lu minah !!!! perangai macam taik saje !!!!! aku sabar saje...sampai lah habis photography session on that day.....then on the thursday there still have one more photography session.....for the club....so i sit there and wait for my club turn to take the photograph..she and israh still didn't come there....unfortunately, mr chuah asked for my help because acaq and wan desa went to the library to take some chairs for the pictures....so i just helped mr chuah....but still once again she said that
"dah ader orang buat kerje aku...buat pe aku nak buat...??? baik aku gie blaja bio...lagipun dah ramai sangat dah ader kat sane..." weh PANTAT !!!! dah ang xmo buat kerje ang....aku la terpakse buat SIAL !!!! on that day i've made a small kenduri...i brought 30 bungkus of nasik lemak to give to the whole class...she and atikah said that they were full already... and shikien said that she had take it but she gave it to che' ah....hish... pompuan nih...but then i take 2more and gave it to both of them and said that
" xpe...ambiklah bawak balik...makan kat rumah".....and then i saw that atikah took it and put the nasik lemak into her bag...but shikien just leave it on her table...lagi sipi-sipi jer nak jatuh bawah....untill the end of class...the nasik lemak is still there...when the time stikes one...i setteled up my things and stuffed all my books into my bag...die sikit pown xpandang muke aku....
on the next day friday....while i was on my way to the field block where i was on my duty there....i coincidently met her in front of the library....dier boleyh pegi pandang atas.. buat muke menyampah kat aku... terus xjadik aku nak tegur dier... BABI ! i was just about to baik-baik back with her... but she is the one who are problematic ! so go on with your attitudes !!!! act like a childish !!!!! during the recces time ....lela and lien story about shikien...she had sms basir(lela's bf) and asked for forgiveness from him.... in her sms,she said that
" let bygone be bygone..." "sudah-sudah lah merajuk tuh..jangan la nak emotional sangat..." but basir didn't reply it....hehehehehhehe....shikien..shikien....you are so hypocrite la !!!! i tought i should be proud of you because of your attitudes that you hate boys...and your "pemikiran yang machute"......but i was wrong....you are totally the other sides of it !!!! you are a liar !!!! lien siap cakap lagik.....
" eee..kalu dier gaduh ngan kite yang perempuan nih...xpernah pown nak mintak maap...siap tarik muke..jeling-jeling lagik... tapi kalau ngan jantan....." hurmmmm..entahlah...bermacam2 perangai orang kat atas muke bumi ini....

then we've made an announcement asked the KPA members to come to the canteen for a meeting..lien were busy filling the entry form...so as the vice-presiddent of the KPA i take charge of the meeting...i asked them all to keep quit just for a few minutes for me to tell them attend the school tommorrow( saturda morning ) at 8.30 for marching and to bring 5 dollar for the camping which will held on 20,21,and 22 of july....but i can't !!!! the kept gossipings, pot-pet-pot-pet.....and while i was talking they didn't pay attention and they didn't respect me ... i felt like i was talking to a stupid dog !!!! i felt so stupid standing in front of my juniors who don't know how to respect the seniors....they really blow my anger to the top !!!! and i shout at them...
" pegi mamposla !!!!!"....huh...i really-really can't control it anymore... so i just headed to the hall for teknik menjawab pai....eeeeeeeee......bengang betol aku....15 minutes later lien came to the hall and told that they've been scold by teacher shahridah....hahahahhahaha padan muke !!!! law korang baik2 ngan gua kan senang tadik...


hahahahahaah....
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