yes. i admit that people change.

dear bloggie....

"i'm neither a narrow minder person, nor a person whom judge a people by the way they look like...
i might be not your mother....perhaps i'm nothing...yes...i might be nothing....but one day...i hope ALLAH will give the HIDAYAH for you...."



you can say whatever you can say.... you can give whatever reasons that you want.... but as a friend...as a muslim i've done my part.....

"You didn't know how I live my life. "-yeah i don't know how did you live your life.... but i did know how you let people affects your life...just by the way of other people looking at you wearing the hijab, the way they treat you, you just wanna give up....??? ahhh come on la girl..i don't know you are that easy to put aside what the ISLAM have gave us as a guideline in life.... ahahaa....what a narrow mind you are....i think you've better make up your mind and widen your scope of life.... palestin people and many other muslims in other countries were dying till the last breath for getting the right to wear hijab peacefully in their country, in their college...but you ???... you live in a peacefull country but then you just take it as a granted....just think of it !!!



So, where's the "don't judge a book by it's cover" have gone?
Oh, so you're saying that, the way I looked is what you've been thinking a reflection of a bad attitude?- i didn't say that you are bad...!!! i never-ever said that you are bad !!! but you're just being too sensitive and jump into a conclusion!!! again, i said, i never called you a bad person !! get it ...??? i even bad than you....i do many2 things before until now...but i still didn't go over the boundaries....but just think of it...your dad has passed away, and then you said that you love him... but look...what you have gave to him...??? one step you were out of your house being freen hair, you gave him one step to the hell....do you know about that...??? i'm not creating my own words ..but that's the fact !!!


'people who exist around me knew me better than those who haven't sees me for a few years...'
- yeah that's true... and that what makes me guilty if i didn't advice you...maybe now u said that u still can control yourself and did not do anything bad...it is just because you didn't get the freedom yet ...once you get the freedom, you'll know what i meant before... i've watched many people before...firstly,they were being so nice...and said.."ohhh..i will never do that....i will never do this..." for the GOD sake... when they got the freedom, they go over the boundaries... i'm not saying this for you..but i said this to myself....because i'm exactly like that...


LOOK doesn't reflect the attitude.
Apa yang kita lihat kadangkala sebenarnya menipu mata kita. Just like what I said before.
That person might seem like an angelic creature. Dalam hati?
Apa yang didalam sebenarnya tidak boleh dihukum melalui apa yang kita lihat di luar.
- heyyy...i used this STUPID reasons before...the time when i was free hair... and if i think back about those memories i felt that i was a really2 a stupid person for using such a nice phrase for a wrong place.... wearing hijab is a must, and those other feelings either angelic feeling or evil feeling it's all are NAFSU okayh...??? some people can control their "nafsu" and some can't...
think of it...widen your scope yeahh young lady...??? i might sound like sarcastic...but what i know is, whatever people said about my religion, whatever people would do towards me about my religion, i'll stand and fight for my religion's right.okay...??? get it...??? i'll never make people look down upon my own religion-insyaALLAH...as long as ader iman yg kukuh di hati...

hah..some people use the reason " alahai...kalau pakai tudung pown, tapi buat bende2 jht... video lucah la...rempit la..." halllooo peeps...xkan la kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga...??? what a narrow mind you have...??? dah tawu depa camtuh..buat apa nak pie ikut..??? TUHAN tu dah bagi elok dah otak tuh...xdak pun wire2 yg short...all the dendrites and the axons were connected and working efficiently....so i don't know why must you used that kind of "alasan" just to be free hair...??? dah kering sgt ker alasan tuh sampai sanggup carik keburukkan org bertudung utk menutup kelemahan diri sendiri...??? think of it my dear......xpun central nervous systems (CNS) korang dah rosak...???

As long as we hold on our faith, our affiliates, we won't flow on the false stream. -don't just said it... prove it !!! speaks louder than action are no different from sounds that have been make by an empty barrel .... kalau stakat layanan pekerje supermarket yg darjat dier jauh berbeze dgn TUHAN ko dah ngalah...how will you gonna face the world out there my dear...??? you're the one who said to me at myspace that out there, there are many people and problems that we gonna face...but i don't know how could you let people affect your life...??? where's your attitude...????

sorry to say...i still can remember clearly the way you've looked at me during your birthday while we was waiting at the mcd about last 3 years ago...you looked at me as if i'm a SLUT you know that...??? yalah... at that time aku free hair, baju nampak pusat, with the spiky belt,spikes at my wrist...while you bukan main lagik bertutup litup sana sini...xnampak aper pun selain dari muka dan tangan.... so decent !!! but now where is that image has gone...???

one more thing, i forgot...u said that 'people who exist around me knew me better than those who haven't sees me for a few years...' yes that's true...tp bukanker before this ko gak ckp...ko xramai kawan kat convent and ko xsuke ngan member2 ko yg kat convent tuh..diorang tuh kaki bully....suka amek kesempatan kat ko...specially when it goes to money...ko ckp...kawan2 ko cumer rapat ngan ko sbb ko slalu blanjer diorang... and one more thing, u've said that u wanna start a new life when you come to changkat jering....u've mentioned that thing so many-many times ... but now i know... the new life that you said is the life you live now...i get it.....

xperla...aku raser enoughler sampe disini saje teguran aku...terpulangla nak terime atau tidak... aku tidak pernah memakse sesiape utk menelan kate2 aku nih...for once again i repeatin case u didn't understand what i've said that i never force people to change...i just give my advice.i just speaks my mind.and that is what i really are.i'm a sarcastic.but i can't stand people who are so-so-so drama queen...sorry lah..aku xpandai nak berdrama.aku xpandai utk berkata2.it might sound harsh.but again i said,i speak my mind.i'm so sorry my dear friend.

izinkan aku petik kata2 HAMKA-seorang kawan akan mengiakan saja keburukan kawannya,tp kawan yg benar xkan merelakan kawannya melakukan keburukan.just bear it in mind my dear friend.one day you'll now the truth in my words.then, there are no turning point.hidup nih hanya sekali.cubalah perbaiki diri.kita semakin hari makin tua.sama2lah kita tegur-menegur utk membaiki diri.abadikan diri pada satu saja yg hakiki.

semoga satu hari nnt TUHAN bagi HIDAYAH kat ko wahai teman...dan juga semoga TUHAN kekalkan keimanan di hati aku nih,semoga tuhan xtarik belik hidayah yg telah-DIA berikan kat aku nih.dan juga semoga tuhan berikan hidayah kepada sesiapa saja yg memerlukannya.

amin....


p/s: aku bukan nak berlagak alim okeh.cuma kadang iman kita nih skijap naik,skijap turun..kiter bukannyer malaikat ataupung nabi2...sekadar teguran.
:)